pelon pelo rico

I don't mind struggling. I actually enjoy it. It makes my life interesting and forces me to really take everything into account, to appreciate the small things; it provides me a certain clear awareness that I can't quite describe. Now the only thing there is to do is bring up the other side, to add a balance to my life that results in struggling for something worthwhile, to add a texture that smoothes the rough edges a bit more, so that I'm not just struggling but struggling while living the part that comes before what the future will be, if that makes any sense. Well, it doesn't need to make sense today. I'll just sit here and enjoy the delicious tamarind candy I found, which I use to enjoy when I was a child...

Now my thoughts go to my childhood. Some of it is blurry and out of focus, but I guess that is a story left for another day.

Goodnight.

The Universe Responds

Despite the annoyances in life (especially today), I have managed to center myself and remind myself to be aware that the universe is constantly giving me messages in everything I interact with in my world. The key is to pay attention, because there are signs everywhere. That's where true power lies.

Life is Peachy, After All

Peaches: Take You On

I'll Take You On

Fuck you. You are shit and will remain shit for the rest of your miserable life. It's cool though; I can deal with it for as long as I need to. Afterwards, where will you be? Where will you be?

Har-dee-har-har.

Milk Tea

(thought I'd post something "real" for a change)

Okay, so I can either go to work and stay up for another 13 hours or not go to work and sleep in. I feel bad for not going but I seriously will not last the day with no sleep! Plus, there are things to do around the apartment and I should really organize my room so I can start working on something, anything; just to at least remind myself that in actuality, I am a designer.

I know that I should go to work but I had to stay up and do laundry and I'm getting old now, so if I don't go to bed by midnight I'm seriously not gonna go to bed anytime after that and won't go to work the next day. I seriously need 8 hours or more of sleep. Part of it is probably the fact that I don't really want to go to work at all.

I feel like there is a blockade in front of me (creatively) that is keeping me from taking the next step in front of me. I need to figure out a way to overcome it. I mean, they say we are our own worst enemy. I just need to chill the fuck out and actually enjoy what I do, being creative instead of trying to wrap my head so much around the concept of being successful. It all ends up becoming too overwhelming and that's why I end up getting nothing done. Concentrating on the future too much fucks everything up. I need to go back to the beginning where I do what I do because It's fun and takes me out of time and space.

Fuck it; I'm just gonna enjoy my milk tea.

Peace.

15 sec.

Peaches: I don't Give A Fuck (Part 2)

FUCKING BRILLIANT. This Bitch is my hero, end of story.