Milk Tea

(thought I'd post something "real" for a change)

Okay, so I can either go to work and stay up for another 13 hours or not go to work and sleep in. I feel bad for not going but I seriously will not last the day with no sleep! Plus, there are things to do around the apartment and I should really organize my room so I can start working on something, anything; just to at least remind myself that in actuality, I am a designer.

I know that I should go to work but I had to stay up and do laundry and I'm getting old now, so if I don't go to bed by midnight I'm seriously not gonna go to bed anytime after that and won't go to work the next day. I seriously need 8 hours or more of sleep. Part of it is probably the fact that I don't really want to go to work at all.

I feel like there is a blockade in front of me (creatively) that is keeping me from taking the next step in front of me. I need to figure out a way to overcome it. I mean, they say we are our own worst enemy. I just need to chill the fuck out and actually enjoy what I do, being creative instead of trying to wrap my head so much around the concept of being successful. It all ends up becoming too overwhelming and that's why I end up getting nothing done. Concentrating on the future too much fucks everything up. I need to go back to the beginning where I do what I do because It's fun and takes me out of time and space.

Fuck it; I'm just gonna enjoy my milk tea.

Peace.