pelon pelo rico

I don't mind struggling. I actually enjoy it. It makes my life interesting and forces me to really take everything into account, to appreciate the small things; it provides me a certain clear awareness that I can't quite describe. Now the only thing there is to do is bring up the other side, to add a balance to my life that results in struggling for something worthwhile, to add a texture that smoothes the rough edges a bit more, so that I'm not just struggling but struggling while living the part that comes before what the future will be, if that makes any sense. Well, it doesn't need to make sense today. I'll just sit here and enjoy the delicious tamarind candy I found, which I use to enjoy when I was a child...

Now my thoughts go to my childhood. Some of it is blurry and out of focus, but I guess that is a story left for another day.

Goodnight.

The Universe Responds

Despite the annoyances in life (especially today), I have managed to center myself and remind myself to be aware that the universe is constantly giving me messages in everything I interact with in my world. The key is to pay attention, because there are signs everywhere. That's where true power lies.

Life is Peachy, After All

Peaches: Take You On

I'll Take You On

Fuck you. You are shit and will remain shit for the rest of your miserable life. It's cool though; I can deal with it for as long as I need to. Afterwards, where will you be? Where will you be?

Har-dee-har-har.

Milk Tea

(thought I'd post something "real" for a change)

Okay, so I can either go to work and stay up for another 13 hours or not go to work and sleep in. I feel bad for not going but I seriously will not last the day with no sleep! Plus, there are things to do around the apartment and I should really organize my room so I can start working on something, anything; just to at least remind myself that in actuality, I am a designer.

I know that I should go to work but I had to stay up and do laundry and I'm getting old now, so if I don't go to bed by midnight I'm seriously not gonna go to bed anytime after that and won't go to work the next day. I seriously need 8 hours or more of sleep. Part of it is probably the fact that I don't really want to go to work at all.

I feel like there is a blockade in front of me (creatively) that is keeping me from taking the next step in front of me. I need to figure out a way to overcome it. I mean, they say we are our own worst enemy. I just need to chill the fuck out and actually enjoy what I do, being creative instead of trying to wrap my head so much around the concept of being successful. It all ends up becoming too overwhelming and that's why I end up getting nothing done. Concentrating on the future too much fucks everything up. I need to go back to the beginning where I do what I do because It's fun and takes me out of time and space.

Fuck it; I'm just gonna enjoy my milk tea.

Peace.

15 sec.

Peaches: I don't Give A Fuck (Part 2)

FUCKING BRILLIANT. This Bitch is my hero, end of story.

tunnel

travelling at the speed of light
going a million miles per hour
past everything
going through a tunnel at warp speed
ligtht passes over / under you
(all around)
100 years pass
everything is so cold
(my head is flattening again)
going down the wormhole
yellow, pink, and blue...

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Molecubes

1

All is right with the world.

Advice of the day

Be successful / follow directions.

The Year of The Beast

Happy birthday to me!

Fuck You, Fuck You

I don't understand why special groups seek to abolish profanity....well, actually I do, they wish to keep people (much like themselves) in social restraints, like a prison of the mind, where you can not fully express yourself. What a load of fucking bullshit. Profanity is so useful in that it provides greater emphasis on the words around them, when simple words alone can not due. But I think this goes far beyond simply words, this speaks volumes about a whole lot of other things. Although, I do not have the energy to delve further into this, perhaps you can have a think and help think our way out of this. Any suggestions are welcomed.

Personal Year 7. . . . a time for analysis and understanding

A 7 personal year promises to be a very introspective year, a period of some pause and reflection between very active years in your life. This year should provide you with some time for gaining some understanding of yourself, and you are apt to spend a good bit of time in contemplation. It will be good for you to spend time alone or in quiet activities, as free from outside responsibilities as possible. You should try to get away from business pressures. This is a good year to reflect on the past and plan for the future. This will not tend to be a year of action, but rather a year of waiting and development. One of the most profitable activities in with to engage during a personal year 7 is that of study and writing, for your ability to think clearly, analyze, and integrate your thoughts is peaked now. Your capacity for research and understanding is at its very best. It would not be unusual for you to take on an appearance of coolness and detachment during a 7 year. Certainly, it is best for you to focus your attention on your talents and your skills in an effort to use the time you have now to refine them. Perhaps you can find the time to gain more education, or simply spend free time in reflection and meditation.

Michael Jackson is Dead

He died.

WTF?

Shirley is Helen

Notice the fannypack.

Mirrors

I told a good friend that I have a slight social anxiety, "I feel like people are looking at me" and she told me, "They probably really ARE looking at you".

The Big Lie

All this fucking shit and drama that goes on in people's lives, just a big fucking distraction from the real problem: that we are alive and we don't know what the fuck we're doing here.